Saturday, August 13, 2011

What should I do? I really have no idea!!?

So I broke up with my ex boyfriend four weeks ago tomorrow. Anyways we were together 4.5 years, and I am still really heart broken over it. In the pit of despair I have been doing some very stupid crap to say the least. So I like this guy lets call him "Juan" anyways "Juan" and I have known each other since middle school. We have never been friends but I ran into him at a party on Friday. I always though he was cute. He has cheated on girls and does all kinds of bad drugs. He is not good news for me and I don't know why I like him. Anyways "Juan" and his best friend "Jesse" and I hung out again on Saturday. On Friday I had been holding hands with "Jesse" and that was before I knew "Juan" liked me. Honestly "Jesse" is a much better guy. I actually like "Jesse" more. He lied and told me he was my age though (19) and he is actually 16 but he is more mature then "Juan" who is my age. Well on Sunday "Juan" told me he had almost kissed me on Saturday, and I told him he could kiss me if he wanted to. On Monday "Juan" and I hung out alone at his house. We wound up doing everything except and actual but did oral and everything. He tried to get me to have with him but didnt even ask me out. At that point I decided I liked "Juan" more and he is so far from my "type" which I always knew. "Juan" posted a facebook status Tuesday afternoon saying how I rock his world. I was very happy and was hoping within the next couple weeks he would ask me out. So then after I got off work at 1230am on Tuesday (technically Wednesday I guess) I was on the way over to "Juan's" house and he called me and asked me could I pick up his friend downtown so I did as it was right on the way. The girl's name lets say is "Hannah." Well we went over to Juan's and I could tell that he likes "Hannah" as well. I coulf not believe he would have me pick up a girl he likes.... anyways he kissed her when I dropped her off at her house and then he lied to me anout even liking her. (I didn't know they actually kissed until later). We went back to his house and fooled around again right after they had kissed. So on that night I stayed over with him and slept in his bed and we snuggled. We woke up and I left and I had to finish packing as I was moving. My friend "Raymond" was going to help me. Well I found out that "Raymond" has liked me for years. He was even going to ask me out at one point when my ex and I had split up but we got back together so he didn't get the chance. "Raymond" is a very nice, sweet, smart, and caring guy. I want to give it a shot with him but I don't know if I have feelings that way for him, but he has all the qualities I always say I want. He is not good looking. Then I was hanging out again with "Juan" last night and we didn't do anything ual, but this morning he admitted to liking "Hannah" "Juan" said he had been planning on asking me out within a few weeks but then he found out "Hannah" was single again and wants to be able to kiss both of us etc etc. I was a ***** to him and flipped out on him and now he is begging me to still be his friend. When he admitted to liking "Hannah" I went over to his best friend "Jesse" and kissed him right in front of him. Anyways I need some advice... please!

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