Have you ever felt selfish?

You obviously had a good reason for not wanting to go. We all at some time or other, have some selfish ways, and that is OK. After-all we need i\our own space sometimes. You stated your father has other kids but he doesn't want to see them, only you. Now that is selfish on his part. He needs to let his children have a part in his life also. They did not ask to be here and it takes a man and a woman to produce a child.